Life is often filled with uncertainties.
So more often than not,we are just wandering souls in the continents we are being scattered around in this big round rotating ball.

While I was reading the one and only Calvin & Hobbes comic book in my house,there is this rather simple yet true dialogue as spoken by Calvin.

I shall present this quote:

"Y'noe,sometimes it seems things go by too quickly.
We're so busy watching out for what's just ahead of us that we dont take the time to enjoy where we are.
Days go by and we hardly notice them. Life becomes a blur.
Often it takes some calamity to make us live in the present.
Then suddenly we wake up and see all the mistakes we've made,but it's too late to change anything..
It's like...It's like ..something that I just can't think of.."

(and he and Hobbes drop down the hill on their push cart.)

True huh?

But tell me,how many people can afford to indulge in the present without harbouring any fear and hope for the future?

It is the same uncertainty in life that makes us cringe,makes us sad,makes us feel we are so insignificant and just a dot in a universe.

We dare to harbour hopes and dreams for the future when we were young.
We all thought that we will eventually be at where we dream.
Advertisements on TV make the dreams seem so much more acheivable.
And so we all thought we will eventually be the next Bill Gates or Justin Timberlake. (Hmm..-_-)

I dare not speak for creation of my kind in other countries as I do not live their culture,lifestyle,country politics etc.

In this tiny island call Singapore,you ought to be proud of what your forefathers and the PMs and President (soon to be all gone,judging by their age.Oh...a shame) had done.
If something that tiny(not more than a dot in the big blue rotating ball) and insignicnat, and really being rakned lousy for everything then,can become something that it is now,the people who are inhabitating that island should be good.
Really all good.

Unfortunately not all can be kings and queens.
Coz there are still achievers,many shoot for the stars,many become who they once aspire to be,some may divert but still are sucessors.

I wonder...what about the rest.
I refuse to believe that I should belong to none of them.

I do not need to be a name that everyone should be in awe of.I know I wont be and I would be content not to be.

But...having not enough for the future.The inability to satisfy what I want makes me feel disgusted of myself.
The inability to enjoy what people out there can becoz I cant have enough,I cant make enough brings me to shame.
The inability to give enough to my parents makes me grit my teeth.

I've never complain that I am poor but I am simply saying I had not and never have push myself hard enough.

I am afraid of what I can't do.
I am afraid of being unhappy in life just becoz I choose to do something that can bring me closer to where those people are.

I am lazy and always is.

I am a critic.
I am a critic to others and myself.
And Jason knows I am a critic of his too.
Which I know is all so wrong but this is me.

While the opposition team may oppose me and tell me that the beautiful things in life comes from what your heart can see,not the naked eye.
But heart can be deceived by desires.
As much as we wanna stay simple and be blissful with the things we have,it is the place that we are living in(I reckon)that had us to keep pushing ourselves to the limit.

Not all can be kings and queens.
Not all can be the bright stars shining in the sky.
But...not all wanna be too.
They would be happy just to be a part of the black skies.
But unfortunately..right here in Singapore,we just cant afford to be.

Ending here with Howie Day's song.It is just so smoothing.
I imagined him to be the long blond rugged man.
Or maybe just rugged...like Hugh Jackman.
(I realised I have develope a deep liking for manly rugged man.Ohh...)

Anyway...

The dawn is breaking

A light shining through

You're barely waking

And I'm tangled up in you

Yeah

*hum*

I'm open, you're closed

Where I follow, you'll go

I worry I won't see your face

Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills my mind

I somehow find

You and I collide

*hum*

I'm quiet you know

You make a frist impression

I've found I'm scared to know

I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the stars refuse to shine

Out of the back you fall in time

I somehow find

You and I collide

Dont stop here

I lost my place

I'm close behind

*hum*

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to ryhme

Out of the doubt that fills your mind

You finally find

You and I collide

*hum*

You finally find

You and I collide

*hum*

You finally find

You and I collide